Honestly, i had a great and amazing birthday celebration with ALL my close friends.

Words can't express the happiness and excitement and i just want to give thanks to all of you who spent your precious time and everything, just to give me a surprise. And of course those who are abroad.

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After my second last final exam of uni life, i had birthday celebration with friends.

Throughout this one week holiday, so many things had been done.

We went sing k... went book fair... and of course the RUmah Juara Charity Bazaar.

This was my first time involving in church event and i had fun...

The inflatable and the bouncing moment... I just can't forget it cause it's really meaningful for me.

I'm going back to church tomoro and hopefully the Lord will continuously to bless the people of God.

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I'm waiting for the offer letter to decide which path to take..

I'm waiting my new sem to commence and start my thesis...

I'm waiting 9th of January to sit my Japanese exam...

Well...I'm waiting for February to come... and i hope we could meet up, JacQ. =)

Sem2的exam終于告一段落 經過這次的考試 更加相信上帝的力量之無窮的！^^

Praise the Lord!~*

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20號要來了哦~從一開始的很興奮到今天 好像沒有什麽感覺

其實生日對我來說 沒有特別的重大 很喜歡生日是因爲這是一個有禮物收的日子~

啊可是如果是沒有禮物，收到一大堆的祝福我也不會介意啦~

那天的中午應該會和媽媽一起過。

然後晚上要和即將graduate的朋友玩一個晚上。（希望媽媽不要催我回家~）

然後星期六照常去上日文課。（要考試了，很緊張。）

星期天daddy mommy講帶我去Tenji~Yeah! XD

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我有一個星期的假期 可是這假期必須用來準備thesis的資料。

那就是代表沒有假期。><

Haiz...但願我能夠順順利利把這份論文完成。

我也忘了自己曾經那麽熱愛文字

忘了自己曾經讀過這樣的一首詩

忘了我有過的一段故事

謝謝你 喚醒了我陳舊的回憶

想起了一個消失在我生命裏挺長一段時間的人

曾經讓我為之瘋狂的--權權

現在的我 還是喜歡權權

還是很喜歡很喜歡這個在不真實的世界裏 讓我感動的人物

Sam*

Thank you.

很想和你說聲“謝謝。” 謝謝你

總是在我需要找人陪伴的時候出現，就像每個星期二早上的brunch一樣。

我想不會有第二個朋友願意特地早到學校陪我吃brunch. XD

就像今天一樣，不會有人在我心血來潮想要吃mille crepe的時候，願意陪我到SS17去。

I guess we've eventually level up to LONG LIFE BUDDY. =) Love yea~

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Jun*

ありがとお (Arigato)

長命豬，和你一起好像回到中學的時候將。

互相幫忙，互相扶持。總是覺得很溫馨，沒有心機，沒有壓力。

真得很謝謝你每次都讓我的孩子停泊在你的家。（我朋友說你以後可以開一個小parking場。XD)

答應你，就算畢業后也要和你去品嘗很好吃的餐廳。^^*

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Mr.Andy*

Kamsahamida! （Korean:thank you)

雖然我和你非親非故，你總是提供我很多功課上的資料，

然後不斷地給我意見和幫助我。

慢慢和你熟儸之後，覺得這樣的友誼也很難能可貴。(Thank you Ai Nee！）

我們以後還要一起一起去午餐！

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Last but not least....

Dear Jy Jy:

Darling, though we are far apart, we are so blessed that our friendship can still maintain to date.

I treasure every moment we spent before and i will appreciate every moment that we are going to spend in te future.

No matter how, i will try my best to maintain this friendship and let it keep on going! XD

Study hard for our exam yeah!

がんばってください！～

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It's already NOVEMBER! =)

To make your life easier, below are some suggestion about my BIRTHDAY PRESSIE....

These are only RECOMMENDED...not MANDATORY (I'm not that cruel...)

1. Dejavu mascara

You can easily get this in any SASA outlet and if i am not mistaken it costs about RM59.

2. Popular gift voucher

As many as you want to give me. I need spiritual food. XD

3. MNG bag

I cant remember the name or the code of the bag, but it worth RM99. And i prefer the grey one.

( this bag is same as what Jacq bought before. After half a year, only i realize it suits me too. )

4. i-pod shuffle

I-pod nano and touch are too pricey and i don't need all those screen to view photos or videos. Thus, i prefer a shuffle. Guess what...Someone said she is going to buy it for me... (who's that? secret! heh)

5.Sony street style headphone

Model no is MDR-Q68LW costs RM 109*. Black or blue~

6.Liquid FOundation

I don't have specific preference for foundation as i didn't use it before. But i prefer liquid instead of powder. =)

Will add in or update it when the day draw closer or i discover something that i really fond of. XD

Thanks!

So crowded and feeling so unsecured because of the parking problem.

And i did something very embarassing yesterday. Well, Ai Nee, one of your guessing is RIGHT!

How come you are so smart? Maybe because you did the same thing like me before rite? XD

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After all the breakthrough, i finally hand in the application form for MAcQ Uni.

BUT, the moment i reached home and while i was discussing something with mommy.

There it came the idea and i am thinking of staying here instead of going to Sydney due to some reason.

I checked U.Malaya and UPM and UKM. I came out with a decision.

I am going to get into U.Malaya. the requirement is higher than what Macq.Uni requires.

It needs CGPA 3.00 and 3 years working experience in order to get in.

SOmemore, 2009 Dec intake is FULL. So highly demanded. XD

If i am not able to maintain my current CGPA, i shall switch to UKM or UPM then.

ANyway, final exam is around the corner and i shall work very hard for my future.

I am so glad that i came out with a new solution for my study and

MY FUTURE IS GETTING CLEARER. =)

for only he will release my feet from the snare.

In all things, look to the Lord. He will guide you.

This is what Ps.Karen told me few days ago.

The faith i have in Father is significant...

Lately, i have been telling by people around me or some news from the paper,

saying that most of the people that has follow Christ

change a lot internally, means the heart and the attitude.

Lord, i hope i am the one that you've chosen and please renew me.

I need to be a better me and a lovely me.

I wish i could be one of the testimony telling the world that

CHrist has the power to change and reform an individual.

His power is above our imagination.

and the prove is in ME.

I'm trying very hard Father.

Trying my best to reach to you. To hear you. To keep you in my heart and mind.

Saviour... I'm waiting on you.

我覺得，我比較適合獨處。

至少那樣，我可以做我自己。

至少那樣，我不會和身邊的人有任何的摩擦。

可是人就是群居動物，所以我時常和身邊的人產生磨擦。

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我覺得，我應該學習更大的忍耐力。

我想，我應該學習怎麽去控制這張惹是生非的嘴。

這樣我就不會亂髮脾氣。

這樣我就不會和身邊的人發生口角。

可是我學習不來，我控制不到，所以我常和身邊的人發生口角。

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我想，我應該努力將所有累積的不愉快都口述或寫出來。

我覺得，我應該讓自己更積極，更樂觀，更快樂一些。

那樣一來，我不會有崩潰的一天。

那樣一來，我就不會因爲文字上的悲觀而讓朋友擔心。

但是，我不會表達，我不能寫出來，所以有一天我會因爲背上了太多行囊而垮掉。

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我七點半爬起來，為的就是欣賞這一天早上的風景。

打開窗戶，有一陣陣涼涼的風吹過。那麽美麗的早晨！

在這裡，最主要的是要紀念這一天。

這一天對我來說很重要。

這是半年紀念日。感謝您。

我是不是天生就是一個醋瓶子？

總是對身邊的事情，尤其是人物的關係圖很敏感。

我不喜歡被忽略，被不在乎，或者是被敷衍的感覺。

常常自己會轉牛角尖的吃身邊人的醋。（啊不是亂吃的那種，是對好朋友而已。）

就是在角落默默耕耘的那種...然後又害怕弄到身邊的不開心，製造問題。

所以都選擇不說。

其實是不是我不會表達自己？是不是我和你們格格不入？是不是有點惹人討厭？

是不是我做錯了什麽， 沒有反省自己？是不是，你們沒有把我當作是很好的朋友？

我天生就是醋瓶子，我很難過，我很傷心。

你們過你們的生活，我獨自留在自己的宇宙。我開始封閉自己。謝謝。

我開始不想和你們任何的人説話，或者說我找不到任何的話題。我的心裏，有一個東西被梗住了。

我原本沒有打算放新的歌進來了，但是看在你的份上，

我換了一首新歌啦！希望你會喜歡~

每一次聽到這首歌，都好平靜，好舒服，好幸福的感覺。

我們要一起努力，找到一個能讓我們覺得幸福的人，好嗎？

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看到阿姐的久違的留言，心裏也有點感慨。

他們經歷著我們走過的一段路，犯著我們曾經犯過的錯誤，

享受著我們曾經有過的甜美，流著我們曾經流過的淚水，

將來也會後悔著我們曾經後悔的後悔，責怪自己曾經任性的年少輕狂。

這樣的人生，這樣的年少輕狂，每個人都會有。

錯誤，是一犯再犯；不管多少人好言相勸，不管多少人身歷其境，

總是要自己一頭栽下去，錯過了，痛過了，淌血了，再來後悔...

我們都是那麽的任性，那麽地堅持自己的經歷會和別人與衆不同。

可是，到最後，年輕只剩下塵封的書信，找不回的青春，還有那麽一絲絲的感慨。

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反正就這樣吧，我們一起犯同樣的錯，然後一起在不一樣的時間點默默後悔。

就這樣吧，反正縂有一天我們會醒過來的。

沒想到傍晚看到蔡依林小姐為這部戯站臺，我在想，天啊！這實在是太巧合了吧？

之後看到小軒為部落格搬了新家，也換上了新衣裳。

自己也想來做一些改變，沒想到又讓我看到了它~

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昨天的心情一直被一些久違的思緒打擾著，在思索...

如果不是你，我應該不會有那麽美麗的一段日子。

快樂，悲傷，流淚，包容，關懷...每一天的心情像是過山車一樣。

是緊張，害怕，卻有很想踏出那樣的一步。

然而，那樣的日子，也許這一輩子再也不會有。

也許這一輩子只能在溫暖的夜裏，想念著那樣的日子。

看著只有因爲你才寫得出的每一個方塊字，看著只有你才會和我一樣欣賞的人，

那樣默契的日子，已經到了期限。

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還是很想親口從你那裏知道，你過得很好。

I love today's scripture where it says:

The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God,

for they are foolishness to him and he cannot understand them

because they are spiritually discerned.

Well, it's just an expression of what i felt few days ago.

I mean, even if you are not so into the religion or maybe you dislike the religion at some degree.

PLEASE not to condemn or think that people are so ignorant to follow that religion.

Religion is something very personal and it has its own function in every individual life.

Don't comment anything about anything when you are still new to it. 

We have different thoughts and priority for every single thing.

& the T.O.P 3 in my life at the moment is:

1. Relationship with FAMILY

2. Get sufficient CGPA in order to get into MacQ.U

3. Relationship and faith in My Maker, My Savior

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While i was listening to Gospels... and i remembered day before yesterday.

During the Sunday morning, when worship team are worshiping ~*

When i start singing all these gospels to praise the Lord, our God.

I felt it! I felt His embrace... I felt His love.

I know He is the one that I can put my trust in.

In your hands, i found LOVE.

I'm ready for salvation! I'm ready to praise you in the storm!

I closed my eyes... & I smiled.

The song says:

Many things about tomorrow, i don't seem to understand.

But i know who holds tomorrow. I know who holds my hand.

Every step i take is getting brighter; Every burden is getting lighter.

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For several times, i've been blaming Lord that He doesn't help out at all.

For some reason, i've been feeling upset as i think He doesn't heard my cry out.

Yet, the pledge that He had made with me, He fulfilled it~

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YESSS! The time has come to stand for all we believe in!

Undoubtedly, Jesus Christ is the SOn of the Living God.

Our sovereign God has the power for every good thing you ask for.

想著想著，我不知道該如何詮釋現在的心情。是羡慕吧，羡慕JacQ仍然可以像以前那樣的和他的好朋友一起。

而我們呢，因爲距離遙遠，因爲生活有個得精彩，讓我們好像都不能像以前的那樣。

我還是很想念以前，燦爛，精彩，有笑有淚，互相扶持的那一刻。

我還是很喜歡這群朋友，還是很珍惜。我還是很愛你們！

The moment i began to write, it ended up NOTHING.

I got no passion to write anymore.Or maybe because

I dont think there will be anyone visiting my blog or waiting for my sharing anymore.

Yeah, this is Fact of LIFE.

WHen you are so not into someone's life, or you have no contact with the person as often as in the past.

You will eventually be IGNORED by the others,no matter how good you WERE.

As you grow, you will notice that, most of the people will eventually change from

asking"YOU" to saying "ME" 

They talk like no others and never ever give a moment to LISTEN.

There is no sharing anymore, but only Showing Off.

That's the reason for me BEING SO ANTI-SOCIAL.

I like to spend QUALITY TIME instead of sitting there and listening to BOASTING.

a place for me to mend my broken heart

a hand to pull me up in times of trouble

ears to share the good and bad in my life

a power to cleanse my sinful thought

an arm to embrace me till the end...

There is always a person like

*YOU*

Care for me all the time~ Love me from the inside out

& YOU give me so much to make me

the Light & the Salt of the world.

What else could i ask from YOU?

What else shall i complaint for?

The BEST thing of this world is dwell within me.

I'm YOUR people and YOU are my future decided.

所以，我漸漸忘記了，其實還有這樣的一個地方。

給我做，内心的告白。

最近的生活並沒有太大的驚喜，平平淡淡的。

偶爾，會遇見一些我想見的人；偶爾，會難得的和我想見的說幾句話。

除了上課，assignments,想thesis的topic，還有和他們一起午餐聚會，我想，人生就是乏味至此吧？

一直很努力試圖向改變一些什麽，卻發現長大了，勇氣也被時間悄悄吃掉了~

好多事情不敢做，不想改變，不願意踏出第一步..

因爲了解堅強的内心不是常常有，所以很努力的想要保持一顆開朗的心。

就算不是真正的快樂，但願這些因子能夠為我的人生找到一點點呼吸的理由。XD

我要做樂觀的人！我要做快樂的人！

上帝的孩子不會那麽容易被打敗~

我反復在聼小鬼的最新EP 反復聼著不屑

這首歌 有種讓我好舒服的感覺

這陣子的自己很不安 是因爲大病初愈的關係

還是因爲 心裏實在有好多想不通的事情？

當然 最令我困擾 最令我覺得壓力的事情 已經過去

我的腦子 不再想些有的沒的事情

下定了決心 要好好念書 生活之類的

然而 這一切 又被一個不堅強的心 弄得一團糟了

我思索了好久 到底 我人生的目標是什麽？ 我這一生 究竟爲什麽而活？

我想 積極生活之前 一定要找到這樣的目標吧？

我始終沒有告訴任何人 我心中的困擾 因爲 我也不知道 應該要怎麽樣的人 才幫到我？

有一段低潮期 失去了所有生活的中心 連部落格也懶得去經營 連自己的思緒也控制不了

我知道 這個時候 即將要忙昏的時候 想這些事情 真得很不恰當

而我 其實也只是很想找回 生活的熱忱 也許...

想想那些 滿腔熱血 卻已經無法實現自己目標的人吧？

是的 我現在最需要的  是熱血吧？

阿信啊阿信 你真得太了不起了！ [熱血]

快點灌我滿腔熱血 讓我充滿活力熱忱的面對接下來的挑戰

我想 這個星期天 是時候好好充電 然後找回我的熱血